Norway, will be fun, for information (stolen off leigh):


ok i don't know what that was about.
But, Collinson and I have sat here discussing a getaway for summer 2009. In discussing this we came to the conclusion that we aren't beach people (lol.) and I wish to go somewhere cultured, musically wonderful and with amazing sights.
So, i'm throwing this idea at you and i'm asking you to think over the prospect of a week away - in Oslo, Norway!
Not only that, we realised we could coincide this culture bound trip with a little ditzy of a festival called Oya(not soya!)
of which you can see much information on this here site

Things obviously depend on funding & other factors. so i'm throwing the idea around now & hoping you will think about it! and find ways of funding this obviously amazing trip :] (i mean - you have almost a year!)
and invite others to share this experience!
we don't know the price yet - but think about it: a holiday & an amazing festival in such a beautiful place. i'm sure we can all find the money by then :)

Exams were okay.
Economics resits, were revised for lots. So if revision actually works, I shouldve done best in those. I needed As, i hope i got them. 
Psychology resit, i actually answered all the questions, so thats a 50% improvement on last time.  Hopefullly, my UMS points will improve by 50% as a result.
Economics actual exam. Erm, i really never know with Economics. I didnt think it was too bad.  I needed good marks though.
Psychology actual exam.  Once again, i did all the questions. Go me. I dont think i did too well. My approaches was good. My debate was good. But my depression was bad.
English exams. Editorial writing, bleh. I think i did alright, it  definitely wasnt A worthy, if it gets an A, it really shows bad taste on behalf of the examiners.  I dont know for Unit 6, Language Change was fair good, Acquisition, ran out of time. But yeh, ive never run out of time on an essay before in English, so that might be a good sign.
Politics. I asked for extra paper in one exam. This is my first time ever in an exam. I was proud of myself. I did well on some questions, but realllly badly on others. Itll be a nice surprise if i get a B.

i reckon ill be getting, overall:
Economics   B
Politics           B
English          A
Gen Stud       A
Psychology   B

i hope i get better tho

But most people really are twats.
Theres been few rooms i've been in today where i havent thought at least once, "why is he/she been such a twat?"
and i really can't be bothered talking to many people anymore.
cos it doesnt make me think, "oh, theyre not as bad as i thought they were."
it just makes me think "wow, they really are a twat"

juno next week though, so thats nice news.
after that im not  going to leave the house for ages though, and live some kind of desolate life as a house-tramp. apart from for sixth form obviously.  it's a bit of a shame thats compulsory, as thats the main centre of twats, that canteen is like a twat battery farm.

I realised today that the thing thats most upsetting about leaving here and going off to Uni, is that theres nothing ill be that upset about when i leave, or anything that i'll miss so much it upsets me deeply.  It kind of makes your life seem a bit...unsuccesful, for want of a better word.  Obviously i'll miss my family, but it's not like i'll lose touch with my family just because i won't be under the same roof, i just wont be living with them anymore. And i have friends who i'll probably lose touch with and it'll be a shame, but i don't have any friends that i can't live without. It sounds childish, but i dont exactly have a best friend, like many people do. It's just a bit scary that i'm going to be moving hundreds of miles away possibly, and it won't have much of a lasting effect, because it makes it seem like stuff that ive done in the past 17 years hasnt had a lasting effect.

It was Becca's party last night, it was fair good. There were some people there i didnt much like, but thats true for most parties.  And then i didnt go the big party thing tonight cos i was feeling a bit tired and I couldnt be much bothered with sitting in a large room full of people for a few hours. Its Mudochs next week though, which should be fun.

I really want to find a hobby. Theres nothing much i enjoy doing in my spare time, apart from Sudoku, but thats not much of a hobby.  A new bands a good idea, i think. But the problem with bands is, i get sick of them after about two months, and im shit at bass. Two large obstacles.

I'm off to bed to listen to Tokyo Police Club and do the puzzles in Take a Break.

so yehh, we went to blackpool and parked.
blackpool is proper rough.
that was a bit unexciting.
but then we met kristian and luke, which was nice, kristian is cool.
his name may be spelt christian though.

and then inside, we were standing around, and then we saw amelia, jason (i think) and some random guy whod travelled from leeds to see them who was also cool.
and blonde redhead played, who i really liked.



and then sam and paul came on stage with blonde redhead!! i was very excited and took about 100 photos. and they played 23 with both drummers playing together, it was amazing.





i was right at the front for blonde redhead, but then people around me were been such cunts. and then these two guys were about to start fighting to i decided to rejoin everyone else a few rows back. so yehh, interpol came on, and played pioneer to the fall first obv. and then obstacle 1 and the place went a bit mental. and we got shoved further and further back, mainly by a large man in a cardigan who stunk of cowshit. and then the rest of the set was amazing, even if the crowd was fair naff. me and becca did the dance to slow hands, and then me, becca luke and helen had a try at acting out the next song. which is fair hard.

then the encore was just amazing, even if there was no specialist :(
but yehh,
Untitled
Stella
PDA

as an encore is nothing to complain about :D

I cant really remember whats happened since i last posted, not because nothings happened, or ive had some form of brain injury but because i have awful time perception during school terms so expect a very uncohesive rambly post.  So yeh, i dont think id been to Leighs yet when i posted by last post.  Leighs was fun.  I discovered the loveliness of Sambuca shots and it was a generally good night.

I'm not doing so good at college, i think ive actually bitten off wayyy more than i can chew doing four subjects. Ive handed in two essays in Psychology, ones got a C and ones got a D. One i didnt try on, but the other i really put a lot of effort into, its really annoyed me. Psychologys confusing me a bit this year, i dont really know why.  Im always tired in lessons, but thats true for a lot, im just going to revise a lot for this Unit 4 exam and hope hope hope. Speaking of Psychology, we did this cool thing in lesson about anti-social behaviour, where we all had to anonymously write what we'd do if we were invisible for a day and then the teacher read them all out.  Sounds fair childish, but it was really fun, and it turns out a lot of my psychology class would rob banks in the nude.  Most people wrote really funny things, but id written a fair pretentious thing, thinking everyone else would, glad it was anonymous.

Im doing decent in Politics and Economics, but only cos ive pretty much put all priority on those as theyre my Uni subjects, but still, i could be doing better. and English is just silly. I dont see the point in any of it. Mrs Shears is actually worse than Ms Burke. Ive rushed all my work and ive scraped an A in each piece so far, but meh, it just seems like such a non-lesson, like General Studies felt last year.  On the brighter side of education however, ive got conditional offers from two unis, manchester and lancaster, both ABB, which is pretty attainable i think/hope.

INTERPOL THIS WEEK.

Im going to try and be nicer from now on. As apparently i call everyone a twat. Which isnt intentional, its just ive never really seen the point of talking to people i dont like or pretending to like people.  And if i say theyre a twat before they get the opportunity to call me a twat, i can claim i disliked them first. Which is fair insecure, but oh well, its a bit like that Organ song, "Look at people, judge them all. Judge them before they judge you, and leave you feeling sad." or something like that. Quoting song lyrics, this is proper turning into a typical live journal.

Fallows's party was tonight. It was fun. Ludo makes any night fun, and the DJ was actually fair good and there was a friendly bunch of people there. Happy Birthday Fallows!

half term is pretty much over which is quite sad. Ive done no work, and i cant exactly blame it on an overexciting social life, since ive only been out about three times all half term. However, i did make this rather amazing playlist



so my times not been completely wasted.  the transition from kate nash to brand new is very uplifting.  Im tempted to put a different Rapture song in though.

One good thing is ive not got into a completely messed up sleeping pattern. It seems a bit silly writing that at 4 AM, however, ive not woken up any later than 1 all half term, which, believe it or not, is mightly impressive for me.  However, the reason ive not got into a bad sleeping pattern is because i keep having really weird dreams and i cant seem to sleep at all. I wake up every few hours, i actually woke up at 10 today. I barely manage that on days when i have sixth form.

Im quite excited about going back to school though, i think its because i missed all of the week before half term, so ive had a long break.   I have a lot of work to do, but it's not too hard.   I say that now, it'll be a completely different story on Monday night when i'm trying to finish it all and go to bed.  As well as seeing my lovely teachers again, return to college also means my UCAS is finally checked and sent of by Ms Smith anddd my EMA returns. Woo. Next friday is my first friday with money hopefully, in a long long time.

Ive not been at school this week.
And ive felt oddly guilty because of it.
I used to get so much pleasure from not been at school; staying in bed, lazing about and what not.  But for some reason all i could think about was letting teachers down, the amount of work i must be missing and the amount of essays that should have been.  I cant believe im finally taking school seriously.

So i was in on Monday. Which i cant remember, as it was long ago.  I can remember charity committee though, plainly because it annoyed me. I just wish people would input more. The meetings run purely by about six of us upper-sixth formers.  Theres about 20 little ones who say fuck all.  When we were little ones last year, wed pretty much over-run the committee by now.  Its like talking to a room of sheep when youre talking to them.

By little ones i mean lower-sixths, not the small people in charity committee.

Then tuesday and wednesday i was ill. Which was sad. Thursday was chester zoo, which was a lot of fun. I spent the day with Becky, Cameron and David. Who were all friendly, however, they made me go into the bat cave, scariest experience ever. One almost got into my hair, scary times. Theres lots of photos on my flickr

Then today, i went to see JK. it was so funny, especially getting there. Max came round to my house at about half 9. SO we watched an episode of jeremy kyle, then went to the train station.. However, we missed the train. So we tried to beat it to ramsgreave, but we got stuck behind so many slow people and then max almost killed us by trying to overtake on a busy road.  So we missed it at ramsgreave, so hung around there til the next train. However, max decided he wnted a pot noodle, so we toured the newsagents looking for a place that would make him one. The third one kindly did so.

SO we caught the train at ramsgreave, and stephen was there, which was a nice surprise. Then we got to Manchester and got a taxi to Granada, we were so far back in the queue, we feared that we werent going to get in. But we did, however, id not brought any ID. so i had to charm (stutter) our way in. It proper worked. Sympathy is my weapon.

So the show itself was a lie detector special. Weve been so lucky with our shows. Weve had a lie detector/dna test special, then a lie detector special.  No boring sad ones. Omg, there were some really loud americans who were so funny. They were really friendly. Which is nice, because there was this queue full of boring english people, who werent talking and then these funny charismatic americans.

me, ste, alistair and max will definately be heard on the show this time, thanks to our synchronised chants of jeremy haha.


argh, theres chavs congregating outside my house now. its soo annoying, because even if theyre doing nothing, its so unnerving and annoying knowing theyre there. especially because they can see right into this room, not that im doing anything weird, id just rather not have chavs watching me.

I need to start a new band.
I liked being in a band.
Once i got used to the stage thing.

Ive decided im making one.
Called We Were Strangers.
cos all my band names have to be related to Joy Division obv.

Schools going well. I got a prize, cos im ace. And i had three frees on friday. Doesnt sound like much, but i usually only have three frees a week, so it felt well odd.

This months looking a bit boring, apart from the great three days that is Chester Zoo> JK > Lancashire Hotpots, but yehh, november looks like its gonna be full of parties, theres about 5 already. which is nice.

just a quick update really, cos im a bit bored.
goodnighttt.

is amazing.
yes, i finally bought the album the other day.
and it is not a disapointment.

apart from the pumpkin song, thats a bit naff.

my dad said hes gonna pay for my resits, well my only resit, which is goood, cos im well too skint but i really want to resit one of my economics modules.  now i just need to find my AS results, ive lost them

nothing amazing has happened at school recently. in politics however, i think my draper doesnt like me much. he had a bit of a rant and spent a lot of it looking at me, tim and gabi. i blame tim and gabi. i dont like the idea of mr draper not liking me, im gonna have to make my essay super impressive.

i got home early today, and organised all my folders and put everything in plastic folders. such a social life i lead.

control this weekend!
i cant wait.

:D

anywayyys, im off, farewell.

Yesterday was a bit odd.
in a nice way.

I got up at a reasonable time and got to economics EARLY. yess, the first friday ive been there on time. lesson went so fast. i cant even remember it. then i had psychology, then was shocked by the fact it was lunch. it felt too early. Lunch was fun, Lidia and Lauren teased me with the prospect of an ian curtis related gift, which i never got. nasty. and then a group of us ruined the daily profits of the can machine.
A song's playing, and i cant remember if its Bowie or John Lennon. Im gonna guess before i check.
Im guessing its Lennon. I think. Lennon - Beautiful Boy.
Yesss im right.
ANyway, Politics with Draper is obviously always fun.
And then english. For some reason i got really depressed in English. She sent me into a special room, at the start of the lesson. It well pissed me off. I spent a lesson sat in a room writing a radio advert. It was so unproductive, i couldve done it at home. I wrote about two lines. It seems silly to get pissed off over something as small as been put into a retard room, or the "quiet room" as she called it. But it was so patronising. Im probably one of the better ones in that class. I definately am. I dont want to sound up myself, but i got amazing marks in my English AS Level without any effort. My writings probably better than most people of my age ( i know it doesnt seem like it on here , but oh well), just cos i dont feel a need to do stupid tasks such as to prove i can write doesnt make me bad at English.

And then home. And then i went to Beccas about 8ish to spend a night with Becca, Luke and Max. It was a decent nightt, we didnt drink which was a nice change tbh.  We had a bit of a depressing conversation about how this time next year we wont be at the same schoool. And then we baked a cake and some sambuca buns and then me and max did some stitching. and then Max drove me home.
Its so odd seeing people drive.

and then today i got rudely awaken at 11 by joe. hes so annoying sometimes. i had to keep him busy for like two hours. he such an attention seeking kid and so rude. He always has to be in demand as well, i know hes only a kid. But going into someones bedroom when theyre sleeping, waking them up, forcing them to get out of bed and go and do exactly what you say for like two hours. he has no consideration, im gonna go all freud on your arse and tell you hes not learnt deferred gratification.

and now ive got nothing to do, so im gonna sit at home and listen to the kinks all day.

my predicted grades that have been sent off to UCAS are: A A A A/B
which is ace, cos it pretty much guarantees me a conditional offer at  three of the universities ive applied for. and gives me a great chance at st andrews and durham.
i know that makes me sound nerdy, but meh, im the only person in my family to go to uni, so if im going to go, i might as well make the most of it and get into the best one i can.
and ive told miss smith ill have my personal statement done by monday, cos if i didnt set myself a deadline, i just would never do it.

i filled in my ema forms today :). im sending them off tomorrow. which means ill finally have an incentive to start turning up at school a bit more and working a bit harder. and most importantly, some money.

ive already got a list of cds i want, at the top thoughh is:
Kate Nash (i like her, so i dont care much if you dont)
Manchester Orchestra
Bat  For Lashes
and the three Voxtrot EPs.

ive decided not to gone see arcade fire. i know i really love themm, but ive seen them before, and ill more than likely see them again (knowing my luck, theyll break up now) and £100 is just way too much to spend on tickets, when theres a lot of stuff i need to buy.

i stood on a slug last night, i was barefooted as well. it was the single most disgusting experience of my life. i was almost sick. i strongly recommend you not to stand on a slug.

Im going to see Control in 9 days :D
www.controlthemovie.com
incase you dont know what im talking about.
but i have been waiting for this movie for longer than a year.
i cant waitt.

in general.
nothing interesting happens.
i have no social life.
and im sick of going to sixth form.

its not that i dont like sixth form.
its alright. im good at my lessons.
but ive got no motivation for it.  its all so routine. and i feel detatched from so many people there. Like, people i'd say are really good friends ignore me. And people i'd say are really good friends have their seperate groups, and everythings so group based and it's all so methodical. I'll go into the canteen at lunch and struggle to find someone to talk to, cos everyone will be on their seperate tables and there'll just be lots of people i don't know everywhere.

and then i'll get home, and the same thing will happen every night. i can tell you it on a time schedule. i get home at 4.15. i make myself some tea at 4.30, eat it at 5. go on the computer til 6.30. watch hollyoaks til 7.30. go for a shower and listen to some cds in my room. come down at about 9. go on the computer. my parents will be saying they wish theyd done the cleaning up earlier, they do every night. my dad will fall asleep in the chair watching tv about 10. my mum will go to bed at about 11, and get angry cos she cant wake my dad up. and then ashley will go to bed soon after. and ill just sit around wasting time til im tired.

its the same everynight.
it bores me so much.
and its never interupted, cos i rarely go out, cos i'm rarely invited out.
cos my friends arent anywhere near as close as they were this time last year.

the next social event im going to is around a month awayy.
thats just not a good thing.

i need some new people to talk to.
i need some new places to go.
i need some new surrroundings.
and i need some new cds.

ive also realised i lie way too much. but its never about anything important. it's just the smallest of white lies, that i tell for no reason. I don't even know why i do it.  It's like the bit in Garden State, where she says, "sometimes I hear myself say something and think, wow, that wasn't even remotely true."
I want to watch Garden State, but my dvd players broken.

i'm gonna have to stop writing before this turns even more into a proper cliche livejournal rant blog thing.

was funnnn
yehh, fun with four n's.

school was a bit naff.
actually it wasnt that naff at all.
but its default setting to say schools naff. like when someone asks you how you are and you say alrightt.

politics was decent, it always is. i like my teachers, and the works interesting and it always goes rather fast.
then psychology went well fast cos i just got to go to the library and work on coursework cos im well ahead.
and english was good cos were analysis adverts, and without wanting to sound twattish, im really good at english and i find it easy, so woo.
then lunch.
then economics.
then home with alistair and carina.
and then stephen turned up.
and we watched the jeremy kyle we were on.
it was amazing
we got so excited about seeing ourselves on there, we rang up and booked ten tickets for a show been recorded during half term :D.

so yess, JK again. i cant wait.
Its also the same week (well week and a day or two) as Chester Zoo, and (hopefully) Arcade Fire.
So that will be an amazing week.

Last night, i finished off my UCAS form almost. Just need to enter my AS Levels (i cant find them anywhere) and my personal statement. And im sorted.
Ive decided im applying for Economics and Politics at Durham, St Andrews, Manchester and Lancaster, and Economics at Liverpool (they dont do an Economics and Politics course).
Im being a bit ambitious tbh, the least i need to get into one of those is BBB.
Which is kinda high, but im doing four A2 levels, so im predicted either AAAA or AAAB, so its kind of a calculated risk.

tonight was also fun, about an hour after stephen, alistair and carina left. Max turned up, as hed past his driving test. Then me, him, carina and becca went driving for ages. Actually becca didnt stay long as she had an essay to doo, but yeh we just drove to the most random of places. And Max and Carina got a bit annoyed as i kept playing Sean Kingston and Kate Nash (<3 obv.), but they cant telll me they have Kate Nash and Sean Kingston and NOT expect me to play them.

I still have no comments on this livejournal, and it says so on the mainpage, i swear its taunting me.

was a bit non existent.
i woke up and felt a bit ill, and i hadnt done my economics essay, so i stayed at home.
and then i went in at lunch cos i felt better and had charity committee (which for some reason i dont like missing :S)
and then english was off.
so me and rachel made our own playing cards.
and then in politics, i pretty much didnt stop laughing thanks to mr draper.

this is very listy and boring. sorry.
look at my new flashing picture to distract you from boredom.
its the economics dog.

so yeh i got home and had something to eat.
and then i started wtaching some crap film and fell asleep. and woke up six hours later.
so no sleep tonight :(.

this weekend was rather fun.
on saturday max had a party, but didnt tell us about the road block, so it took about 2 hours to get there.
but when we got there, fun obv ensued.
theres photos on here
and a few videos on here
which are worth a glance.

it was a nice party though. i didnt get too drunk, which is always good and fun things happened like sitting with drunk max in the car (which was fair scary), the communal bath, kate nash (<3), and the random bread that was everywhere.

and now im off to watch black books and do that essay that i didnt do.
goodnight!

was actually decent.
i was fair shocked.
none of the year below seem that twattish.
and all the year above have gone.

my time tables a bit naff though, i have three frees.
but two are first thing on thursday and friday, so a lie in at least.

and all my classes are decent,. theres people to talk to in each.

universitys getting me down a bit though. the teachers want personal statements in soon. i dont have a clue what course i want to do, or where i want to go. im kind of thinking economics, but i dont have a clue where.

arghy.

i actually have a picture things now.
just need to make a decent page thing.

cos my old one had lots of naff stuff that depressed me.
it was the originpol one.
loads has happened over summer.

i saw jeremy kyle live, which was obviously amazing.
i got my AS results, which i posted on here , but oh welll.
i went to leeds festival, which was great.

it was weird though, its such a funny place. i spent most of it not waiting to go home, so i could use a toilet and a shower and sleep in a bed, then the second i got home, i missed leeds. actually the second i was in the car, i missed leeds.

it was really different to what i expected. i thought itd be during the day seeing about 10 bands, then at night meeting lots of new people and everyone been jolly. but, i got there on the wednesday, got drunk with my friends.  on thursday saw so many people from school and random places, got way too drunk and missed all the bands, ended up in the welfare tent, then attempted to see some bands on friday, but couldnt stand it because of the hangover and heat. saturday, saw bands inbetween drinking and recovering. and the same thing for sunday.

its more of a camping trip with bands, than a music festival with camping. which is what i was expecting.

i'm determined to see more bands next year though.



applying for university is scary.

im gonna make some new picture things, i forgot what theyre called.